Attention everyone: I am getting fat. This is not an apology. This is a mission statement.
No, before you ask, I am not doing this for an acting role, as someone suggested. I’m not doing this intentionally. What I mean by this is that from now on, I am going to eat whatever I want and not give a fuck. I simply can’t handle giving a fuck about this anymore. Whether I diet or don’t diet, I still hate my body. So I may as well eat delicious food.
I lovingly refer to myself as “skinny-fat.” Skinny fat is when you’re a size 2-6 but you have a tummy and love handles (who, by the way, came up with this diabolical term for fat around the hips?) Skinny-fat is being thin but not toned. Skinny-fat is skinny anywhere else in America but not in Los Angeles and NYC.
That is what I am. And since I turned 15, that is what I have always been. And I just don’t care anymore.
Is this giving up or is this having a good attitude? I can’t tell.