Nadia Cassini, a very rad woman. I have once been told that I look like her. It was the highlight of my day, my week, my month, even my year.
I’ve got to believe that it’s going to get better. I need to, like Rod Stewart, find a reason to believe.
It’s not always going to be like this. There’s going to be a day when we know what we’re doing. There’s going to be a day when we’re dating someone who is not an asshole. There’s going to be a day when we are paid for doing something we love and are good at and make our parents proud. This day is coming and we need to believe this.
We need to cheer up somehow. We need to tell ourselves that it’s not so bad. We need to find friends and tell them that we need them. We need to go out and we need to make responsible decisions but we also need to have fun.
We need to eat well and stop gorging ourselves on rich cheeses. That is, I think we need to do this. We need to firmly and finally drop people from our lives who respond to our cries of help with, “Ask someone else.” We need to let people know that our time is valuable and that we deserve your attention and respect.
When our friends tell us that that guy is not a nice guy then we need to believe them. When people show us who they really are we need to believe them. We need to believe in ourselves that it will all work out. Maybe to help us we can believe that any choice we make is the right one, as long as we’re making it in a sane frame of mind.
Because we need to stop doubting ourselves. Hating ourselves. Pitying ourselves.
But if we can’t then we need to be OK somehow. Someday. And if all we can do is hope and believe then that’s what we’ll do. Because that’s something. That’s the first step towards something.
I have to believe that it’s going to get better.
