I wasn’t kidding a few posts back when I said I don’t breathe correctly. I think you’re supposed to breathe through your nose and our your mouth but I inhale too deeply, via my mouth, clench my teeth, realize that I’m holding my breath, then let it out. Did you know that gulping too much air leads to bloating? This is why I don’t chew gum. Now I’m trying to monitor my breathing and it’s driving me crazy. You’ll probably hate me after reading this because now you’re going to focus on your breathing. YOU ARE NOW AWARE OF YOUR BREATHING.
Being tense is a specialty of mine. It’s weird because most of the time I’m pretty laid-back but when I would most like to be easygoing is when I’m at my most nervous. I want to believe in myself but I let life get in the way. I try to plan everything out. I try not to psych myself up. But I think it’s back firing. I just want to have unwavering belief in myself. Do you have any idea how hard that is? To block out all of the “logical” reasons why something won’t work out for you and to focus instead on how great you are and how everything is going to work out somehow? You know who’s really good at doing that? Kanye West.
God I love Kanye West.
Maybe we can help each other. If I weren’t me and I were reading this and I wanted to help myself, I would say, Maybe you should just say, fuck everything else, and only think about things you can control. And what can you control? You can control what you look like and how hard you work and nurturing your talent. That’s it. All you have to do is be you. You’re in the prime of your life. Enjoy it!
You know what? I think it’s Kanye time. This is for all of us:
